Thoughts from 3am

i go to a dentist in a town i am familiar with. i get there in time (for once) and as i exit my car, my senses come alive as i feel the warmth of the sun and the smell of the grass. i stop and pay attention. the universe has sent me a gift (?)

then it occurs to me that i used to live in this town many years ago and had many mornings that were warm and grassy smelling, but never once had the urge to literally stop myself from walking and be present in the (any) moment. why now?